Ok! It's almost 2012..and I am 40 years old! Weird thing is...I LOVE IT!! Something happened when I turned 40...it was like magically I began to embrace and really enjoy life. I am sure part of it is having great friends who give me something to look forward too... (Much better than my 30's when I had pretty much isolated myself and definitely felt the impact of that for the entire decade).
Tomorrow is New Year's Eve...and I am going OUT! I haven't gone out to celebrate New Years in over a decade and a half. It was always so depressing to me... No one to kiss at midnight. Single, pathetic woman all alone... Then I hit 40 and realized....I spent a decade and a half waiting for "the one" to come and make my life worth fully living... And it turns out - my life could have been fantastic the entire time - even without Mr. Right.
Now, I AM taking baby steps. It's not like I am going out to some big fancy party somewhere. I am going to C's garage party. I am not going to stumble upon the man of my dreams there, for sure....but this is NOT about finding a man to fulfill me. This is about loving the life I have right now....with my friends. How lucky am I? Bring it on, 2012...I look forward to what you have in store :)
